Friday, March 31, 2023

Daily Ponderings: The Power

Jacob 6:9
Know ye not that if ye will do these things, that the power of the redemption and the resurrection, which is in Christ, will bring you to stand with shame and awful guilt before the bar of God?

He has power. He will give it to me if I ask for it when I need it.

TFHW: Picture Time

3-30-23
Emailed Lisa
Scanned some of Gary's pictures
Emailed Roy

Thursday, March 30, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Harden Not Your Hearts

Jacob 6:5
Wherefore, my beloved brethren, I beseech of you in words of soberness that ye would repent, and come with full purpose of heart, and cleave unto God as he cleaveth unto you. And while his arm of mercy is extended towards you in the light of the day, harden not your hearts.

I should look at my heart and try to see what's under the crusty shell that keeps trying to grow over it.

TFHW: To the Temple

3-29-23
Helped get Kitten to temple
Helped Joshua with homework
Tried to find insurance for Gary - he had none
Emailed Patty

Wednesday, March 29, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Not Harden My Heart, I Shall Be Saved

Jacob 6:4
And how merciful is our God unto us, for he remembereth the house of Israel, both roots and branches; and he stretches forth his hands unto them all the day long; and they are a stiffnecked and a gainsaying people; but as many as will not harden their hearts shall be saved in the kingdom of God.

Keep my heart soft and open to long term thinking.

Daily Ponderings: The World Shall Be Burned With Fire

Jacob 6:3
And how blessed are they who have labored diligently in his vineyard; and how cursed are they who shall be cast out into their own place! And the world shall be burned with fire.

I will destroy worldly habits within me by replacing them with habits that help me long term

Daily Ponderings: The Good Will I Preserve

Jacob 5:77
And when the time cometh that evil fruit shall again come into my vineyard, then will I cause the good and the bad to be gathered; and the good will I preserve unto myself, and the bad will I cast away into its own place. And then cometh the season and the end; and my vineyard will I cause to be burned with fire.

I should look for what's good in my life and try to have more of that, and remember it, and focus on it

Scripture Power

The power of the scriptures is not in the plain or even fully contextual meaning of the words, but in what the words make me think of while I read them.

TFHW: Honoring His Memory

3-28-23
Emailed Patty Emailed Roy Went through some of Gary's stuff

Tuesday, March 28, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Root and Top Equal, According to Their Strength

Jacob 5:73
And there began to be the natural fruit again in the vineyard; and the natural branches began to grow and thrive exceedingly; and the wild branches began to be plucked off and to be cast away; and they did keep the root and the top thereof equal, according to the strength thereof.

I need to accept my limitations as such, and not castigate myself for failure.

Daily Ponderings: Change the Branches That Good May Overcome Evil

Jacob 5:59
And this I do that, perhaps, the roots thereof may take strength because of their goodness; and because of the change of the branches, that the good may overcome the evil.

The branches are my activities and habits.

Daily Ponderings: Nourish Again

Jacob 5:58
And we will nourish again the trees of the vineyard, and we will trim up the branches thereof; and we will pluck from the trees those branches which are ripened, that must perish, and cast them into the fire.

I should never hesitate to seek from Him the spiritual nourishment I need.

Daily Ponderings: Pluck the Fruit Most Bitter

Jacob 5:52
Wherefore, let us take of the branches of these which I have planted in the nethermost parts of my vineyard, and let us graft them into the tree from whence they came; and let us pluck from the tree those branches whose fruit is most bitter, and graft in the natural branches of the tree in the stead thereof.

Start by eliminating my most unproductive habits from my life.

Daily Ponderings: The Trees of My Vineyard

Jacob 5:51
And the Lord said: Yea, I will spare it a little longer, for it grieveth me that I should lose the trees of my vineyard.

I am counted precious to Him, and He will give me all I stand in need of

Are the Scriptures True?

Are the scriptures true?

Can man fly?

No, except under a very specific set of circumstances. But "no" is an easier answer than figuring out what those circumstances are.

Embrace Discomfort

Embrace discomfort. Don't run away from it, but bring it in close and make it an acceptable part of myself.

Pursuit of Happiness

Pursuit of happiness doesn't mean chasing it. It means "to practice daily"

Who Am I?

I'm not an extrovert, just a friendly introvert.

TFHW: Pushing Through

3-26-23
Went to Green Bay, went through Gary's apartment
Stopped at Professional Guardianships to drop off heir list
Talked to Patty

Monday, March 27, 2023

Daily Ponderings: They Had All Become Corrupt

Jacob 5:39
And it came to pass that they went down into the nethermost parts of the vineyard. And it came to pass that they beheld that the fruit of the natural branches had become corrupt also; yea, the first and the second and also the last; and they had all become corrupt.

Things that were once good for me to spend time on may no longer fit who I've become.

Daily Ponderings: We Should Do Something for It to Preserve It

Jacob 5:37
But behold, the wild branches have grown and have overrun the roots thereof; and because that the wild branches have overcome the roots thereof it hath brought forth much evil fruit; and because that it hath brought forth so much evil fruit thou beholdest that it beginneth to perish; and it will soon become ripened, that it may be cast into the fire, except we should do something for it to preserve it.

I should take the time to do things that strengthen me, fortify me, and keep me focused on and grateful for the good.

Daily Ponderings: Bad Fruit Profiteth Me Nothing, Notwithstanding All My Labor

Jacob 5:32
But behold, this time it hath brought forth much fruit, and there is none of it which is good. And behold, there are all kinds of bad fruit; and it profiteth me nothing, notwithstanding all our labor; and now it grieveth me that I should lose this tree.

Ask "does this help me make progress, or does it just kill time?"

Daily Ponderings: The Time Draweth Near, and the End Soon Cometh

Jacob 5:29
And it came to pass that a long time had passed away, and the Lord of the vineyard said unto his servant: Come, let us go down into the vineyard, that we may labor again in the vineyard. For behold, the time draweth near, and the end soon cometh; wherefore, I must lay up fruit against the season, unto mine own self.

I should keep a time limit on things that distract

Daily Ponderings: Cast Them Into the Fire

Jacob 5:26
And it came to pass that the Lord of the vineyard said unto the servant: Pluck off the branches that have not brought forth good fruit, and cast them into the fire.

I can leave behind things that distract me from making progress

TFHW: Draw This!

3-26-23
Talked to ward council about TFHW
Borrowed animation books from Sam
Texted Matthew
Texted Mark
Emailed Kelly

Sunday, March 26, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Nourishing Brings Forth Fruit

Jacob 5:20
And it came to pass that they went forth whither the master had hid the natural branches of the tree, and he said unto the servant: Behold these; and he beheld the first that it had brought forth much fruit; and he beheld also that it was good. And he said unto the servant: Take of the fruit thereof, and lay it up against the season, that I may preserve it unto mine own self; for behold, said he, this long time have I nourished it, and it hath brought forth much fruit.

The more I practice holding His peace and power, the easier it will become.

Daily Ponderings: Watch the Tree and Nourish It

Jacob 5:12
Wherefore, go thy way; watch the tree, and nourish it, according to my words.

I can give myself the things I need to grow, including a quiet place.

Daily Ponderings: Not Cumber the Ground

Jacob 5:9
Take thou the branches of the wild olive-tree, and graft them in, in the stead thereof; and these which I have plucked off I will cast into the fire and burn them, that they may not cumber the ground of my vineyard.

I can let go of things that don't support my long term goals

Daily Ponderings: Preserve the Fruit Thereof Unto Myself

Jacob 5:8
And behold, saith the Lord of the vineyard, I take away many of these young and tender branches, and I will graft them whithersoever I will; and it mattereth not that if it so be that the root of this tree will perish, I may preserve the fruit thereof unto myself; wherefore, I will take these young and tender branches, and I will graft them whithersoever I will.

It is good to focus on my own happiness.

Daily Ponderings: Nourish It, and It Perish Not

Jacob 5:4
And it came to pass that the master of the vineyard went forth, and he saw that his olive-tree began to decay; and he said: I will prune it, and dig about it, and nourish it, that perhaps it may shoot forth young and tender branches, and it perish not.

I need to believe that he can help me figure out how to make myself better and happier. Happiness takes energy. It's a workout that can become easier and automatic over time.

Daily Ponderings: Unfold This Mystery

Jacob 4:18
Behold, my beloved brethren, I will unfold this mystery unto you; if I do not, by any means, get shaken from my firmness in the Spirit, and stumble because of my over anxiety for you.

He will tell me what I need to know if I ask. He will also help me find the right question, which is 90% of it.

TFHW: Through the Blizzard

3-25-23
Gave Kitten a blessing
Cleared the driveway alone
Went to Hmong baptism for Kitten
Reached out to Matthew (call and text)
Value-checked Gary's books
Emailed Tom, John, Roy, & Patty about keepsakes
Filled out Gary's heirship paperwork

Saturday, March 25, 2023

Daily Ponderings: These Things Are Manifested unto Us Plainly

Jacob 4:13
Behold, my brethren, he that prophesieth, let him prophesy to the understanding of men; for the Spirit speaketh the truth and lieth not. Wherefore, it speaketh of things as they really are, and of things as they really will be; wherefore, these things are manifested unto us plainly, for the salvation of our souls. But behold, we are not witnesses alone in these things; for God also spake them unto prophets of old.

He will tell me what I need to know if I ask.

"How" questions are preferable

You Shall Not Be Confounded

From D. Todd Christofferon's April 2009 "The Power of Covenants":
"...you shall not be confounded..."

What looks like an obstacle is actually a new path. Every bit as rich, exciting, and joyful as the one I'd been walking.

The Best Guide

From Dieter F. Uchtdorf's October 2022 "Jesus Christ Is the Strength of Youth":
"...the best guide you can possibly have for making choices is Jesus Christ."

I can always ask for help and advice in my choices. I can ask "what is the best choice for all involved?"

He Gives Power and Strength

From Dieter F. Uchtdorf's October 2022 "Jesus Christ Is the Strength of Youth":
"He gives power to the weary; and to those who feel powerless, He increases strength"

If I am sad or angry, I need power and strength

Eternal, Unchanging Truth

From Dieter F. Uchtdorf's October 2022 "Jesus Christ Is the Strength of Youth":
"...eternal, unchanging truth."

The most positive possible outcome is always the truth, until proven otherwise.

See Things Clearly

From Dieter F. Uchtdorf's October 2022 "Jesus Christ Is the Strength of Youth":
"...always see things as clearly as we would like to."

Have a vision of myself being perfectly calm.

No Limits

From Dieter F. Uchtdorf's October 2022 "Jesus Christ Is the Strength of Youth":
"...with His help, there are no limits to what you can accomplish."

That includes finding a way to push through the thing that is making me feel sad or angry.

TFHW: Family Temple Day

3-24-23
Went to the temple for baptisms
Rescheduled with Gary's landlord
Emailed Patty
Emailed Roy

Friday, March 24, 2023

Daily Ponderings: I Glory In

2 Nephi 33:6
I glory in plainness; I glory in truth; I glory in my Jesus, for he hath redeemed my soul from hell.

"I glory in" means "I celebrate the transformational power of"

Daily Ponderings: We Have Power

Jacob 4:7
Nevertheless, the Lord God showeth us our weakness that we may know that it is by his grace, and his great condescensions unto the children of men, that we have power to do these things.

I should ask Him to let me use His power, to accomplish the needful things in my life

TFHW: Remember Grandpa

3-23-23
Added a memory to grandpa Olson's page
Emailed Patty
Texted Mark
Texted Jeff

Thursday, March 23, 2023

Daily Ponderings: A Degree of Knowledge Concerning Their Fathers

Jacob 4:2
For, for this intent have we written these things, that they may know that we knew of Christ, and we had a hope of his glory many hundred years before his coming; and not only we ourselves had a hope of his glory, but also all the holy prophets which were before us.

I should help the younger generation know who they are.

Daily Ponderings: Made by the Hand

Jacob 3:14
These plates are called the plates of Jacob, and they were made by the hand of Nephi. And I make an end of speaking these words.

I should act on the promptings I receive

Obedience & Gratitude

From Russell M. Nelson's April 2018 "Revelation for the Church, Revelation for Our Lives":
"...continue to be obedient, expressing gratitude for every blessing the Lord gives you..."

Obedience + Gratitude = Happiness

Quiet, Pray, Listen, Write, Do

From Russell M. Nelson's April 2018 "Revelation for the Church, Revelation for Our Lives":
"Find a quiet place where you can regularly go. Humble yourself before God. Pour out your heart to your Heavenly Father. Turn to Him for answers and for comfort.

Pray in the name of Jesus Christ about your concerns, your fears, your weaknesses—yes, the very longings of your heart. And then listen! Write the thoughts that come to your mind. Record your feelings and follow through with actions that you are prompted to take."

Find a quiet place
Be humble
Pour out all of my heart
Listen
Write it down
Do

Self-Unity

From Russell M. Nelson's April 2018 "Revelation for the Church, Revelation for Our Lives":
"Our unity helps us to discern the Lord's will for His Church."

Am I a house divided regarding my own righteous goals?

Does my lion lie down with my lamb?

Sequester and Seek

From Russell M. Nelson's April 2018 "Revelation for the Church, Revelation for Our Lives":
"I then sequestered myself in a private room in the temple and sought the Lord's will."

I can bring the solitude with me and receive revelation wherever I am.

Entering His Presence

"Christ covers us with his goodness. He wraps us in his sinlessness and dresses us in his holiness."
~Max Lucado

I am the prodigal son, but instead of going to the Father, I ask the good son to accompany me into our Father's presence. While I am there, He says "it's ok, Father, he's changed" and His word is enough. He vouches for me.

TFHW: Schoolmarm

3-22-23
Helped Joshua with schoolwork
Texted Mark
Emailed Kelly
Texted Roger
Emailed Patty
Texted Jeff
Emailed Corey
Talked to Lisa

Wednesday, March 22, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Revile No More Against Them

Jacob 3:9
Wherefore, a commandment I give unto you, which is the word of God, that ye revile no more against them because of the darkness of their skins; neither shall ye revile against them because of their filthiness; but ye shall remember your own filthiness, and remember that their filthiness came because of their fathers.

I should watch for signs of bitterness and allow His peace to fill me.

Much Displeased

Jesus was "much displeased" with the disciples for holding back the children (Mark 10:14). He was not angry.

Focus

Am I thinking about what I lack, or being grateful for what I have?

My New Parts

What do I give my time and allegiance to?
What is becoming part of me?

Marriage Nurturing

Turn towards bids for connection.
Express appreciation for each other.
Brag about each other's talents and achievements.
Say "I love you" every day.
~Gottman Institute

TFHW: Making Arrangements

3-21-23
Attended Kitten's Doctrine of Christ class twice
Emailed Patty
Called University Hospital
Call Patty
Called Cassidy
Talked to Lisa about Gary's assets

Tuesday, March 21, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Have Not Forgotten the Commandment of the Lord

Jacob 3:5
Behold, the Lamanites your brethren, whom ye hate because of their filthiness and the cursing which hath come upon their skins, are more righteous than you; for they have not forgotten the commandment of the Lord, which was given unto our father—that they should have save it were one wife, and concubines they should have none, and there should not be whoredoms committed among them.

I should remember the things He has asked me to do and let them fill me with peace as I do them.

TFHW: First Day of Spring, First Day Without Gary

3-20-23
Emailed Patty
Emailed Roy
Emailed Siblings
Drove to Madison with family
Held FHE

Monday, March 20, 2023

Daily Ponderings: The Strictness of the Word of God

Jacob 2:35
Behold, ye have done greater iniquities than the Lamanites, our brethren. Ye have broken the hearts of your tender wives, and lost the confidence of your children, because of your bad examples before them; and the sobbings of their hearts ascend up to God against you. And because of the strictness of the word of God, which cometh down against you, many hearts died, pierced with deep wounds.

His commandments (not a few) are absolute, but they pave the path to happiness

Daily Ponderings: Limitations

Matthew 11:29
Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

Know HIS power, know HIS limitations.

What are His limitations?

Can't lie
Can't hurt people
Can't hate
Can't be angry

Daily Ponderings: Learn of Him

Matthew 11:29
Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

Know HIS power, know HIS limitations.

Balance - able to bear that burden across the strongest part of me

Am I being yoked to the Savior, or is he letting me borrow a yoke so that I don't have to carry my burden in my hands?

Daily Ponderings: Fear/Belief

Mark 5:36
As soon as Jesus heard the word that was spoken, He said to the ruler of the synagogue, "Do not be afraid; only believe."

Don't slump (fear), sit up straight (believe)

The Burden

The worst part of my burdens is not my burdens, but my thoughts about them.

~Katy Jorgensen

Doubt Not, Fear Not

Fear is not real. Physical experiences are. The opposite of fear is action. Dive into the wave and come out safe on the other side.

Image: I open my heart, he opens his arms, embraces me and says "you're safe".

~Heather Pierce

Light

God uses me as a way to shine His light

~Mason Hummer

TFHW: Doing My Calling

3-19-23
Emailed Patty
Talked TFHW with Sam Drake

Sunday, March 19, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Begin to Wax

Jacob 2:23
But the word of God burdens me because of your grosser crimes. For behold, thus saith the Lord: This people begin to wax in iniquity; they understand not the scriptures, for they seek to excuse themselves in committing whoredoms, because of the things which were written concerning David, and Solomon his son.

I should seek to grow in my ability to feel His peace and use His power.

True to Your Covenants

From Russell M. Nelson's October 2021 "The Temple and Your Spiritual Foundation":
"As you are true to your covenants..."

There are long ways to explain this phrase, but it comes down to peace, power, and kindness to myself and others. All day, every day. If I mess up, I try again. Simple.

Draw Upon His Power

From Russell M. Nelson's October 2021 "The Temple and Your Spiritual Foundation":
"...those who build their foundations upon Jesus Christ, and have learned how to draw upon His power..."

Any time my mind turns away in protest, He can give me the peace and power to turn back, face, and conquer the unpleasantness. Over time, I will come to learn that it won't hurt the way I'm afraid it will.

Not Wrong, Just Different

Just because I could have chosen to have done something different, doesn't mean that what I did choose was wrong.

TFHW: So Much Emailing!

3-18-23
Went to temple for sealings
Emailed Roy
Called hospitals about Gary
Emailed Cassidy about getting on Select Specialty's "talk to" list
Contacted Kelly
Reached out to Mark
Emailed Patty
Emailed siblings

Saturday, March 18, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Think of Your Brethren Like Unto Yourselves

Jacob 2:17
Think of your brethren like unto yourselves, and be familiar with all and free with your substance, that they may be rich like unto you.

I should be kind to myself and those around me.

Daily Ponderings: Doth Abound

Jacob 2:12
And now behold, my brethren, this is the word which I declare unto you, that many of you have begun to search for gold, and for silver, and for all manner of precious ores, in the which this land, which is a land of promise unto you and to your seed, doth abound most plentifully.

There are treasures all around me, I just need to view them as such and feel gratitude.

TFHW: 3-18-23

3-17-23
Emailed Erik
Emailed Roy
Got metal tree for Kitten
Sat through most of Activities Committee meeting
Emailed Roy about Erik's mom
Emailed Erik about his mom

Friday, March 17, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Laboring With Our Might

Jacob 1:19
And we did magnify our office unto the Lord, taking upon us the responsibility, answering the sins of the people upon our own heads if we did not teach them the word of God with all diligence; wherefore, by laboring with our might their blood might not come upon our garments; otherwise their blood would come upon our garments, and we would not be found spotless at the last day.

I should focus on the things He asks me to do. Peace being primary, power following as I focus.

I Already Wished for This

Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.

~Epicurus

What I Truly Value

Committed decisions show up in two places: your calendar and your bank account. No matter what you say you value, or even think your priorities are, you have only to look at last year's calendar and bank account to see the decisions you have made about what you truly value.

On Time

Success

Per Scott Adams:

Happiness
Optimism
Gratitude
Networking
Reciprocity

TFHW: Hooray for Email!

3-16-23
Talked to Kitten about blogging, family, and the bathroom
Emailed Patty
Emailed Jeanne
Emailed Erik
Emailed Siblings

Thursday, March 16, 2023

Daily Ponderings: They Were Called

Jacob 1:13
Now the people which were not Lamanites were Nephites; nevertheless, they were called Nephites, Jacobites, Josephites, Zoramites, Lamanites, Lemuelites, and Ishmaelites.

I should choose names for myself that are empowering.

My Conversion Story

(written November, 2014; baptism March 22, 2014)

I was 20 years an atheist and reasonably content with where my life was and where it was going.

By "atheist", I should explain I wasn't a typical "evangelical" atheist, going around trying to talk people out of believing in God. I knew plenty of Christians, and the whole prayer & scriptures thing seemed to work for them, but for myself, I was strictly "none-of-the-above", religiously.

I didn't even consider myself "spiritual". The only peculiar habit I had was that, when I felt troubled, I would visualize myself alone in a room, talking to an older, wiser man, and getting counsel therefrom. Turns out - as I learned later in my discussions with the missionaries - what I was doing was technically indistinguishable from "prayer", although that was never how I thought of it.

I've had Mormon co-workers before. I was in the Navy for 6 years. Worked alongside plenty of them. My opinion: didn't smoke, didn't drink, didn't swear, slow to anger... kind, reliable, and trustworthy. Just... all around nice folk. Didn't understand them, but liked working with them.

My Navy days are far behind me now, but recently I'd gotten a new Mormon co-worker that I was assisting on a project. A very nice lady. Very cheerful. Seemed happy all the time. And I felt a little envious of HOW happy. I thought to myself that I might like to be happy like that, instead of just "reasonably content".

One day I was chatting with her, dropping casual cuss-words into the conversation (there's a reason the expression "swear like a sailor" exists), and she asked me to please not swear around her.

So I figured "I don't swear around kids or sweet little old grandmothers, I can turn it off for her, too."

And I did.

And in the following days, I decided that I should practice not swearing so I wouldn't let any profanity slip in future conversations with her.

And I started noticing something. I used to swear at my computer any time it was slow or balky. Well, I'd stopped doing that. And I noticed I was less frustrated. More peaceful. Calm.

Which made me wonder what OTHER parts of her religion might have practical side effects (I'd never considered religion "practical" before).

She told me about the Word of Wisdom - no tea, or coffee, or alcohol, or tobacco. Kind of a bummer, since I was 0 for 4 on that - I did everything.

So I gave up tea - there were other non-carbonated beverages that were just as tasty.

Coffee - well, sometimes I drank decaf because I didn't want to be up all night, but I still wanted a beverage that "tasted like getting stuff done". Turns out Kaffree Roma Roasted Grain Beverage was close enough. Plus, no more "caffeine roller-coaster".

Alcohol - I drank regularly, but not heavily. I tended to lay awake, just thinking, unable to shut off my brain, so I would drink some liquor at bedtime as a sleep aid. Every night. Woke up a little fuzzy-headed, but at least I got some sleep.

Well, one night I was feeling tired, so I decided to try just going to bed without the booze.

It worked. And no morning fuzzy-head.

And that was that for alcohol. Afterwards, if I found myself battling insomnia - turns out a stomach full of milk & cookies makes me sleepy, too.

Tobacco... well, tobacco and I go WAY back, and I thought that would be tough. I didn't smoke cigarettes, but I loved cigars. I did my best thinking with a cigar in my hand. So I thought about what might make a good substitute. Turns out: Tootsie Roll Pops. Very strong flavor, you can hold them in one hand (or your mouth), and they last a long time.

That worked. No more smell. No more mess. No more expense. No more having to run out in the cold to get a "fix."

I tried other things, too.

Reading scriptures every day.

Blessing the food before every meal.

Praying morning and evening.

Not working on Sundays - I thought that one was going to be impossible. In addition to my day job, I had a couple recurring freelance writing projects, so I was working 7 days a week. I couldn't imagine taking a day off. But I decided to try working just a little bit harder the other 6 days, and lo and behold, I found myself with my Sundays free. This commandment is actually my favorite one to keep now.

Watching General Conference. Twice. I really liked the talks. They were very uplifting and seemed geared to a wider audience than just church members.

Tithing - I practiced setting aside 10% of my income, just to see if it would be a burden. Turned out I didn't even notice a difference.

Fast Sunday - I discovered that, after a couple hours, I didn't even feel hungry anymore. Surprisingly easy.

And I read... "Mormonism for Dummies"... Talmage's "The Articles of Faith"... I wanted to make sure that I was aware of all the "tricky parts" of this faith. That there were no more surprises.

I'd also read a lot of stuff about Mormonism on the internet, and came away with two peculiar results. First, when I read "mainstream" Christians bashing Mormonism for not being mainstream, I noticed that it was just those parts that they didn't like that made Mormonism more appealing to me. Things like pre-mortal existence, the plan of happiness, God & Jesus being separate personages, and the three post-mortal kingdoms of glory - these all made sense to me. I thought that if I were God and I wanted my spirit-children to become like me, that's what *I* would do.

Second I noticed that opponents of Mormonism tended to swear and be very angry in their writing, while Mormons on the internet were calm and rational and patient. From years of working on the internet, I know that the people who are the angriest in an argument are usually the ones who are wrong.

And then my friend sent missionaries to my house. And I took lessons every week. And I asked hard questions, and over time I kept noticing that I shared a lot of values with this faith. Values that I'd picked up in the Navy - honesty, integrity, responsibility, accountability, reliability, loyalty, obedience to higher authority.

And after many long discussions, and prayer and pondering and letting my Heavenly Father address my concerns and answer my questions, I decided I had gone as far as I could go in just "thinking about things". I'd hit a plateau and the only way forward was to take action. I set a date for my baptism.

And right after my baptism, on that very day, I wrote in my little notebook, "I am happy".

I had found what I was looking for. I had traded up - exchanging my "reasonable contentment" for happiness.

Best deal I ever made, and I look forward to continuing to make it forever.

Why Sell All You Have Instead of Give It to the Poor?

Normally Jesus just says come follow me.

Leave your nets - he didn't say "sell your boat"

Don't say goodbye to family 

Don't even bury your dead.

This guy he wants to take time for a rummage sale.

Change your focus away from your immediate comfort.

Burn the bridge. Let there be no way back from choosing to follow Him.

Consecrate - Whatever I have, use it to be kind to myself or others.

These Miracles Heal Me

Listening to a litany of His miracles, the thought that He fixes what is broken inside me in just exactly the same way. It's the same power. It's the same miracle. Not an historical analogy - the same.

"Do you understand?"

Patterns

Finding patterns, even ones that aren't really there, can help me stack anchors and become more powerful.

TFHW: Digging Them Up

3-15-23
Watched Joshua while Kitten went to temple
Looked up Kelly, Matt, & Mark

Emailed Jeanne Emailed Tom about John

Wednesday, March 15, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Partake of the Goodness

Jacob 1:7
Wherefore we labored diligently among our people, that we might persuade them to come unto Christ, and partake of the goodness of God, that they might enter into his rest, lest by any means he should swear in his wrath they should not enter in, as in the provocation in the days of temptation while the children of Israel were in the wilderness.

I can partake of His peace and power at a moment's notice any time of day or night. The more often I partake, the easier it becomes. Eventually it becomes as habitual and effortless as breathing.

TFHW: Helping and Connecting

3-14-23
Responded to Roy on Gary email
Emailed Cassidy
Called & emailed Dana
Emailed Patty
Considered how to contact Dick's kids
Emailed siblings
Wished Ryan a happy half-birthday

Tuesday, March 14, 2023

Daily Ponderings: The Lord Commanded Me, and I Must Obey

2 Nephi 33:15
For what I seal on earth, shall be brought against you at the judgment bar; for thus hath the Lord commanded me, and I must obey. Amen.

I should follow the promptings I have been given

TFHW: Tree!

3-13-23
Made temple appointments
Went out to check on Kitten clearing the hedge
Emailed Patty
Helped Kitten work on her tree

Monday, March 13, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Commanded of Him to Write These Things

2 Nephi 33:11
And if they are not the words of Christ, judge ye—for Christ will show unto you, with power and great glory, that they are his words, at the last day; and you and I shall stand face to face before his bar; and ye shall know that I have been commanded of him to write these things, notwithstanding my weakness.

I should write the promptings He gives me

Kindness in Action

From Marvin J. Ashton's 3-30-82 BYU talk "It's No Fun Being Poor":
"A true friend is one who is willing to take us the way we are, but is able to leave us better than he found us."

This is kindness. This is charity. This is the way He loves me. This is the way I should love others when I spend time with, say honest praise to, or listen to.

Waiting or Progressing?

Am I just waiting for things, or am I putting my time to good use?

TFHW: Long Lost

3-12-23
Emailed Cousin Jeanne
Comforted Joshua

Sunday, March 12, 2023

Questions

"What should I do?" vs. "Is this the right thing to do?"

Daily Ponderings: Meek and Lowly in Heart = Strengths and Limitations

Moroni 7:43
And again, behold I say unto you that he cannot have faith and hope, save he shall be meek, and lowly of heart.

Know what my strengths are (power under control) and my limitations (a man's got to know his limitations)

Daily Ponderings: The Substance

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

Empowering beliefs are the building blocks of strong anchors

Daily Ponderings: Maketh an Anchor to the Souls

Ether 12:4
Wherefore, whoso believeth in God might with surety hope for a better world, yea, even a place at the right hand of God, which hope cometh of faith, maketh an anchor to the souls of men, which would make them sure and steadfast, always abounding in good works, being led to glorify God.

Hope is a strong anchor

Daily Ponderings: Lay Hold on Eternal Life

1 Timothy 6:12
Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, whereunto thou art also called, and hast professed a good profession before many witnesses.

Eternal life means living life here on earth such that I would want to live that way forever. Means being comfortable with the way I deal with adversity, because opposition is eternal

Daily Ponderings: They Should Do Good

2 Nephi 33:10
And now, my beloved brethren, and also Jew, and all ye ends of the earth, hearken unto these words and believe in Christ; and if ye believe not in these words believe in Christ. And if ye shall believe in Christ ye will believe in these words, for they are the words of Christ, and he hath given them unto me; and they teach all men that they should do good.

Do good = kindness = charity

Daily Ponderings: I Have Charity for My People

2 Nephi 33:7
I have charity for my people, and great faith in Christ that I shall meet many souls spotless at his judgment-seat.

If all I can understand of charity's meaning is "kindness", I will not err in applying it so.

TFHW: Life Can Be a Dream

3-11-23
Did endowments at temple
Took family to Dairy Dream
Went back in to mingle after Stake Conference
Helped Joshua show off animal mashups

Saturday, March 11, 2023

Daily Ponderings: I Glory in Truth

2 Nephi 33:6
I glory in plainness; I glory in truth; I glory in my Jesus, for he hath redeemed my soul from hell.

He will give me the power I need to transform to become more like Him

TFHW: Helping Hand

3-10-23
Shoveled the McIlvene's driveway with Joshua
Made temple appointment

Friday, March 10, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Not Faint

2 Nephi 32:9
But behold, I say unto you that ye must pray always, and not faint; that ye must not perform any thing unto the Lord save in the first place ye shall pray unto the Father in the name of Christ, that he will consecrate thy performance unto thee, that thy performance may be for the welfare of thy soul.

It takes practice to keep His peace and power often enough to make it habitual and effortless. If I miss an opportunity, I can try again immediately with no punishment. Whenever I remember is sufficient. I will get better, and the habit will come.

TFHW: Visiting Family

3-9-23
Visited Gary
Emailed Roy
Took Joshua to the Madison Zoo
Emailed Patty

Thursday, March 9, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Given Unto Them in Plainness

2 Nephi 32:7
And now I, Nephi, cannot say more; the Spirit stoppeth mine utterance, and I am left to mourn because of the unbelief, and the wickedness, and the ignorance, and the stiffneckedness of men; for they will not search knowledge, nor understand great knowledge, when it is given unto them in plainness, even as plain as word can be.

The Spirit speaks plainly, when I seek His power to live in His peace

TFHW: Doing My Part

3-8-23
Watched Joshua while Kitten went to the temple
Emailed Erik
Emailed Roy

Wednesday, March 8, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Brought Into the Light

2 Nephi 32:4
Wherefore, now after I have spoken these words, if ye cannot understand them it will be because ye ask not, neither do ye knock; wherefore, ye are not brought into the light, but must perish in the dark.

I can be brought into the light by turning to Him and seeking His peace

Peace

Peace is letting myself do one thing at a time.

27 Words of Persuasion

27 Words
"People will do anything for those who encourage their dreams, justify their failures, allay their fears, confirm their suspicions and help them throw rocks at their Enemies."

Encourage their dreams - Describe how it LOOKS and FEELS to have those dreams delivered – and don’t hold back the details.

Justify their failures - "It's Not Your Fault!"

Allay their fears - "What keeps your prospects up at night?" - show them how I make the world a safer, friendlier place

Confirm their suspicions - "What do [They] not want you to know?" - Let your readers know you're on their side. You care. You support them. And here's how...

Help them throw rocks at their enemies - Now that we've established an enemy, what are we going to do about it? Inspire your reader to action. Help them take aim at their problems. Show them how you'll help them come out ahead. For now, all they have to do is keep reading...

TFHW: A Giving Heart

3-7-23
Gave Kitten a Blessing
Attended Kitten's Doctrine of Christ class twice

Tuesday, March 7, 2023

Daily Ponderings: This Is the Way

2 Nephi 31:21
And now, behold, my beloved brethren, this is the way; and there is none other way nor name given under heaven whereby man can be saved in the kingdom of God. And now, behold, this is the doctrine of Christ, and the only and true doctrine of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost, which is one God, without end. Amen.

I should follow the path He prompts me to by turning to Him for peace

He Has the Power

From Russell M. Nelson's April 2021 "Christ is Risen; Faith in Him Will Move Mountains
"...faith that Jesus Christ has the power to cleanse, heal, and strengthen us."

Not only that He has the power, but that He will use it if we ask Him to.

TFHW: Feel Right at Home

3-6-23
Did FHE
Emailed Erik

Monday, March 6, 2023

Daily Ponderings: I Heard a Voice

2 Nephi 31:15
And I heard a voice from the Father, saying: Yea, the words of my Beloved are true and faithful. He that endureth to the end, the same shall be saved.

I should listen for His voice and do as He commands.

Faith, Hope, and Charity

An empowering belief, a strong anchor, and kindness.

Why the Old Way of TFHW Doesn't Work

Because if you don't care about your own family, you won't care about somebody else's family.

But everyone DOES care about their family. The goal of TFH leadership is to bring the blessings of temple and family history to people. The fastest, easiest way to do it is to ask someone about their family. The Holy Ghost does the rest.

TFHW: You're Doing it Right

3-5-23
Emailed Erik
Did indexing
Gave report to Ward Council

Sunday, March 5, 2023

Daily Ponderings: The Holy Ghost Descended

2 Nephi 31:8
Wherefore, after he was baptized with water the Holy Ghost descended upon him in the form of a dove.

Any time my heart is open, the Holy Ghost can descend upon me, and I can feel peace.

The Answer

God's answer isn't no, it's "I've got a better idea"

TFHW: Brother Report

3-4-23
Visited Gary
Helped make cookies
Emailed siblings
Emailed Corey about list to strengthen family

Saturday, March 4, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Be Revealed

2 Nephi 30:18
Wherefore, all things which have been revealed unto the children of men shall at that day be revealed; and Satan shall have power over the hearts of the children of men no more, for a long time. And now, my beloved brethren, I make an end of my sayings.

I should keep my eyes open to see the things that He can reveal to me. Revelation is more abundant through the eyes of peace.

TFHW: Confetti Is Joy

3-3-23
Listened to Ryan's phone call
Texted TFH Council
Emailed Patty, Tom, John, Roy, Shandra
Emailed Gathering Israel newsletter
Attended Select Specialty Hospital zoom call

Friday, March 3, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Lie Down Together

2 Nephi 30:13
And the cow and the bear shall feed; their young ones shall lie down together; and the lion shall eat straw like the ox.

I should seek His peace and be a peacemaker to the contention within me

Hope

Hope = a strong anchor.

See also Hebrews 6:19 "Which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast..."

Time to Write

"The 'if I had time' lie is a convenient way to ignore the fact that novels require being written and that writing happens a sentence at a time. Sentences can happen in a moment. Enough stolen moments, enough stolen sentences, and a novel is born — without the luxury of time." - Right to Write

TFHW: Do It for Her

3-2-23
Watched Joshua while Kitten was in Madison
Had hard conversation about unemployment

Thursday, March 2, 2023

Jesus Lives the Beatitudes

POOR IN SPIRIT - recognizing I'm not where I want to be - Luke 2:12 - Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger

MOURN - processing the implications of the need to change - Luke 2:49 - Wist ye not that I must be about my Father's business?

MEEK - realizing that I have the power to choose to change - Matthew 26:53 - Thinkest thou that I cannot now pray to my Father, and He shall presently give me more than twelve legions of angels?

HUNGER & THIRST - Choosing to change - Matthew 4:2 - And when he had fasted forty days and forty nights, he was afterward an hungered.

MERCIFUL - not beating myself up for not having changed earlier - John 2:4 - Woman, what have I to do with thee? My hour is not yet come.

PURE IN HEART - single-mindedly focused on the work of becoming the new person I want to become - Luke 9:2 - And He sent them to preach the kingdom of God, and to heal the sick.

PEACEMAKERS - gently & diplomatically handling other people who resist my change - Matthew 22:21 - Render therefore unto Caesar the things which are Caeser's, and unto God the things that are God's

PERSECUTED - realize it's a reflection on the persecuters, not on me - Matthew 23:33 - Ye serpents, ye generation of vipers, how can ye escape the damnation of hell?

REVILED - it doesn't even cause me to doubt or hesitate any more. I'm so focused on who I want to become that I don't think about the revilers. - John 8:6 - Jesus stooped down, and with His finger wrote on the ground, as though He heard them not.

Daily Ponderings: Destroy the Wicked, Spare His People

2 Nephi 30:10
For the time speedily cometh that the Lord God shall cause a great division among the people, and the wicked will he destroy; and he will spare his people, yea, even if it so be that he must destroy the wicked by fire.

It's not about the Jews, it's about me. This has to do with separating the evil from the good within myself, and letting His peace fill me and dissolve the hard heart within me.

Daily Ponderings: Become a Delightsome People

2 Nephi 30:7
And it shall come to pass that the Jews which are scattered also shall begin to believe in Christ; and they shall begin to gather in upon the face of the land; and as many as shall believe in Christ shall also become a delightsome people.

I can become delightsome by frequently seeking His peace

TFHW: Keeping Track of Things

3-1-23
Talked to Kitten about dropping Amazon Music Unlimited

Wednesday, March 1, 2023

Daily Ponderings: My People

2 Nephi 29:14
And it shall come to pass that my people, which are of the house of Israel, shall be gathered home unto the lands of their possessions; and my word also shall be gathered in one. And I will show unto them that fight against my word and against my people, who are of the house of Israel, that I am God, and that I covenanted with Abraham that I would remember his seed forever.

I am His

Increasing Faith in Christ

Increasing faith in Christ means stacking anchor on His name, which means continually attaching more and better empowering beliefs to His name. His name is the unique sound that is the trigger for the anchor. To anchor means to attach a state to a trigger.

The Ultimate Question

Pray and ask "How can I..."

TFHW: Front and Center

2-28-23
Attended Kitten's Doctrine of Christ class twice
Emailed Patty