Sunday, April 30, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Always Abounding in Good Works

Mosiah 5:15
Therefore, I would that ye should be steadfast and immovable, always abounding in good works, that Christ, the Lord God Omnipotent, may seal you his, that you may be brought to heaven, that ye may have everlasting salvation and eternal life, through the wisdom, and power, and justice, and mercy of him who created all things, in heaven and in earth, who is God above all. Amen.

I should try to be kind. If I feel frustrated, I should remind myself that there will be time.

TFHW: Coming Down

4-29-23
Attended and took down Easter Joy party

Saturday, April 29, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Not Be Blotted Out

Mosiah 5:11
And I would that ye should remember also, that this is the name that I said I should give unto you that never should be blotted out, except it be through transgression; therefore, take heed that ye do not transgress, that the name be not blotted out of your hearts.

I should keep His name in my heart.

TFHW: Going Up

4-28-23
Set up Easter Joy party

Friday, April 28, 2023

Govern the Lord's Affairs

From William R. Bradford's October 1979 "The Governing Ones":
"Even if television were not filled with foolishness, violence, immorality, and filth, its entertainment value would still not justify the time drain. You are here to work to govern the Lord's affairs, not to be entertained."

Consider recreation vs. entertainment (vs. escape)

Daily Ponderings: Ye Have Spoken the Words I Desired

Mosiah 5:6
And now, these are the words which king Benjamin desired of them; and therefore he said unto them: Ye have spoken the words that I desired; and the covenant which ye have made is a righteous covenant.

Watch my words, and speak words that describe how I want to be

TFHW: Always Learning

4-27-23
Attended Kitten's Institute Class

Thursday, April 27, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Watch My Thoughts, Words, and Deeds

Mosiah 4:30
But this much I can tell you, that if ye do not watch yourselves, and your thoughts, and your words, and your deeds, and observe the commandments of God, and continue in the faith of what ye have heard concerning the coming of our Lord, even unto the end of your lives, ye must perish. And now, O man, remember, and perish not.

I should keep my focus on His peace

Hear the Voice Through the Noise

From Boyd K. Packer's October 1979 "Prayers and Answers":
"Yet he can understand, for he has trained himself to tune out the interference.

It is difficult to spearate from the confusion of life that quiet voice of inspiration. Unless you attune yourself, you will miss it."

I can practice listening to the Spirit even when I'm surrounded by noise. This will help me get better at it.

Straight Back Invites the Spirit

Any time I feel sad, troubled, weak, tired, incapable, or uncertain:

1 - check spinal position
2 - correct without changing mood
3 - consider that "maybe" I can do this.

TFHW: Watching

4-26-23
Watched Joshua while Kitten went to the temple Made color copies for Kitten

Wednesday, April 26, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Impart of the Substance Ye Have

Mosiah 4:21
And now, if God, who has created you, on whom you are dependent for your lives and for all that ye have and are, doth grant unto you whatsoever ye ask that is right, in faith, believing that ye shall receive, O then, how ye ought to aimpart of the substance that ye have one to another.

If I have been blessed, I should share that.

TFHW: It Was the Birds

4-25-23
Googled birding in Provo
Attended Kitten's Doctrine of Christ zoom class twice

Tuesday, April 25, 2023

The Gospel Makes Me Kind

Even though I can't prove it's true, I know that treating it like it's true is what makes me kind.

Words of Christ

The words of Christ are His spiritual essence distilled to a form that I can assimilate and make a part of me, to help me become more like Him.

Power

Power to change is power to dismiss alternative choices that are creating friction and resistance.

No Longer Useful

Through the Atonement of Jesus Christ, I don't have to count my mistakes anymore. They don't cease to exist, but they no longer count because, when I repent and change, my mistakes no longer hold value as predictors of my behavior. I become cleansed and free.

The Fundamental Change

The goal is to make kindness habitual for me until it takes effort NOT to be kind.

The Purpose of Scriptures

The whole purpose of the scriptures is to give me a place to go where I can be open to the messages of the Holy Ghost

You're Already Doing It

From notes regarding a TFHW meeting on 11-4-21
"What's the most important thing the attendees need to know?

You're already doing it. You may not think of it as TFHW. If you do it with awareness, then He can bless us accordingly"

18 months - and forgotten - before I did a sacrament talk revolving around this exact theme.

Make It Mine

Re: David A. Bednar's April 2023 "Abide in Me, and I in You; Therefore Walk with Me":

"Abide in me and I in you" means that I make His kindness, my kindness; and His peace, my peace." We are not separate.

Daily Ponderings: Causeth Such Exceedingly Great Joy

Mosiah 4:11
And again I say unto you as I have said before, that as ye have come to the knowledge of the glory of God, or if ye have known of his goodness and have atasted of his love, and have received a bremission of your sins, which causeth such exceedingly great joy in your souls, even so I would that ye should remember, and always retain in remembrance, the greatness of God, and your own cnothingness, and his dgoodness and long-suffering towards you, unworthy creatures, and humble yourselves even in the depths of ehumility, fcalling on the name of the Lord daily, and standing gsteadfastly in the faith of that which is to come, which was spoken by the mouth of the angel.

I should look for things that cause joy.

The Guru and the Naam

Why read the Sikh holy scriptures?

Because when I can see Him everywhere, then I don't need to look for Him. He will just be there with me, because we are not separate. And I will know it, and I will act like it.

TFHW: The Rest of the Story

4-24-23
Read the rest of my TFHW talk for FHE

Monday, April 24, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Thus Hath the Lord Commanded Me

Mosiah 3:27
And their torment is as a lake of fire and brimstone, whose flames are unquenchable, and whose smoke ascendeth up forever and ever. Thus hath the Lord commanded me. Amen.

When I do what He says, my life will be good.

TFHW: Say the Words Given to Me

4-23-23
Gave talk on TFHW

Sunday, April 23, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Full of Love

Mosiah 3:19
For the natural man is an enemy to God, and has been from the fall of Adam, and will be, forever and ever, unless he yields to the enticings of the Holy Spirit, and putteth off the natural man and becometh a saint through the atonement of Christ the Lord, and becometh as a child, submissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father.

Kindness will get me everything I need.

Charity, Kindness, Love, Obedience

Long held the theory that, scripturally, "charity" means "kindness". Does "love" also mean "kindness"? This usually works, although not in the case of loving God.

John 14:15 says "If ye love me, keep my commandments."

Kindness toward God is shown by obedience. Similar to honoring thy father and mother.

TFHW: Stake Temple Day

4-22-23
Texted TFH Council
Went to the temple for Stake Temple Day
Emailed Scott
Fixed rough patch with Kitten's hard day

Saturday, April 22, 2023

Daily Ponderings: A Righteous Judgment

Mosiah 3:10
And he shall rise the third day from the dead; and behold, he standeth to judge the world; and behold, all these things are done that a righteous judgment might come upon the children of men.

I should seek things which are honest and true.

TFHW: 75

4-21-23
Went to the temple for baptisms, did the work for Dave
Went shopping at 3 stores
Went birding
Remembered Gary's birthday

Friday, April 21, 2023

Daily Ponderings: They Are Received into Heaven

Mosiah 2:41
And moreover, I would desire that ye should consider on the blessed and happy state of those that keep the commandments of God. For behold, they are blessed in all things, both temporal and spiritual; and if they hold out faithful to the end they are received into heaven, that thereby they may dwell with God in a state of never-ending happiness. O remember, remember that these things are true; for the Lord God hath spoken it.

To be received into heaven is to be in the presence of God. And when I have the companionship of the Holy Ghost, I am in the presence of God. I can feel that presence and let it fill me with peace.

TFHW: The One Who's Passed

4-20-23
Wrote TFHW talk
Scanned Gary pictures
Requested Gary records
Printed temple baptism names

Thursday, April 20, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Spake That Which Was Commanded

Mosiah 2:35
And also, all that has been spoken by our fathers until now. And behold, also, they spake that which was commanded them of the Lord; therefore, they are just and true.

I should speak the truths that he tells me to say.

Daily Ponderings: A Clear Conscience Before God

Mosiah 2:27
Therefore, as I said unto you that I had served you, walking with a clear conscience before God, even so I at this time have caused that ye should assemble yourselves together, that I might be found blameless, and that your blood should not come upon me, when I shall stand to be judged of God of the things whereof he hath commanded me concerning you.

If I do what He tells me, my conscience will be clear.

Faith to Knowledge to Faith

From L. Tom Perry's April 1980 "Nauvoo - A Demonstration of Faith":
"...the more the gap was closed between the principles which must be accepted by faith and those which could be obtained by knowledge, the stronger would be their faith."

Eventually all faith becomes knowledge.

He Provided the Miracle

From Michelle D. Craig's October 2018 "Divine Discontent":
"The disciples were right: they didn't have enough food, but they gave what they had to Jesus, and then HE provided the miracle."

Whatever I have, He can make it enough.

TFHW: Watch and Wait

4-19-23
Watched Joshua while Kitten attended temple
Went shopping with Kitten

Wednesday, April 19, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Nothing Grievous to Be Borne

Mosiah 2:14
And even I, myself, have labored with mine own hands that I might serve you, and that ye should not be laden with taxes, and that there should nothing come upon you which was grievous to be borne—and of all these things which I have spoken, ye yourselves are witnesses this day.

He will make everything OK.

Daily Ponderings: The Voice of the Lord Came Unto Him

Acts 7:31
When Moses saw it, he wondered at the sight: and as he drew near to behold it, the voice of the Lord came unto him,

As I draw near to Him, I will hear His promptings and know how to make progress in my life.

Daily Ponderings: With Boldness Speak

Acts 4:29
And now, Lord, behold their threatenings: and grant unto thy servants, that with all boldness they may speak thy word,

I should never be afraid to speak the truth when prompted.

Walk in Meekness

From David A. Bednar's April 2023 "Abide in Me, and I in You; Therefore Walk with Me":
"...as we press forward in faith and walk in the meekness of the Lord's Spirit, we are blessed with power, guidance, protection, and peace."

Knowing my strengths. and being able to access them using anchors to trigger empowering beliefs, I can have power, guidance, protection, and peace.

Abide in Me and I in You

From David A. Bednar's April 2023 "Abide in Me, and I in You; Therefore Walk with Me":
"...abide in me, and I in you; therefore walk with me."

We are not separate.

Nurturing Environment

My job is to create an environment for myself. One that encourages nurturing conditions

TFHW: Double Class

4-18-23
Emailed Roy
Attended Kitten's Doctrine of Christ class twice
Emailed Patty

Tuesday, April 18, 2023

Fix the Adversary

I should do the opposite of what I feel like doing, unless what I feel like doing is kind.

Kindness is Key

Kindness is the antidote to contention.

Good Enough

I don't have to be perfect, just willing.

Closer to the Lord

Becoming closer to Him means I spend more time looking at and thinking about Him, and less time on unproductive things.

The Place Where I Can Hear Him

It's not about obedience, it's about putting me in a place where I can best hear the Holy Ghost.

Daily Ponderings: Did As His Father Had Commanded Him

Mosiah 1:18
And now, it came to pass that Mosiah went and did as his father had commanded him, and proclaimed unto all the people who were in the land of Zarahemla that thereby they might gather themselves together, to go up to the temple to hear the words which his father should speak unto them.

I should listen to promptings and do them.

What I Can Do, What HE Can Do

From W. Mark Bassett's April 2023 "After the Fourth Day":
"...the Savior expects us to do all we can do, and He will do what ONLY HE can do."

The division is important. I should let Him do His part and not try to do it all.

No More Comparisons

From Vern P Stanfill's April 2023 "The Imperfect Harvest":
"When we comapre ourselves to others, there can be only two results. Either we will see ourselves as better than others and become judgmental and critical of them, or we will see ourselves as less than others and become anxious, self-critical, and discouraged. Comparing ourselves to others is raely productive, not uplifting, and sometimes downright depressing. In fact, those comparisons can be spiritually destructive, preventing us from receiving the spiritual help we need."

Anxious, self-critical, discouraging. This also happens when I compare myself to my past self. I need peace to time travel

See Myself the Way He Sees Me

From Vern P Stanfill's April 2023 "The Imperfect Harvest":
"...your potential is limitless. He would want you to see yourself the way He sees you. And that is very different from the way the world sees you."

I should try to see myself the way He sees me.

We Love What He Loves

From Ronald A. Rasband's April 2023 "Hosanna to the Most High God":
"Oil pours into our hearts when our choices show we love the Lord and we love what He loves."

What does He love?

Confirm Truth to Those Who Listen

From M. Russell Ballard's April 2023 "Remember What Matters Most":
"As you bear testimony of what your KNOW, BELIEVE, and FEEL, the Holy Ghost will confirm the truth to those who earnestly listen to your testimony."

I should testify to myself from time to time.

Cast Satan Out

From Russell M. Nelson's April 2023 "Peacemakers Needed":
"Cast [Satan] out of your relationships!"

Including my relationship with myself

Virtuous, Lovely, Good Report, Praiseworthy - In Me

From Russell M. Nelson's April 2023 "Peacemakers Needed":
"..."if there is anything virtuous, lovely, or of good report or praiseworthy" that we can say about another person - whether to his face or behind her back - that should be our standard of communication."

This can also be my standard of communication with myself. Kind and gentle.

TFHW: Close Family

4-17-23
Emailed Patty
Emailed Roy
Emailed Mark
Held FHE

Contention is Evil

From Russell M. Nelson's April 2023 "Peacemakers Needed":
"Make no mistake about it: contention is evil!"

Including internal contention. If I feel tesion mounting, I can seek neutral peace in teh present moment before allowing myself to time travel.

Monday, April 17, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Preserve Me By His Power

Mosiah 1:13
Yea, and moreover I say unto you, that if this highly favored people of the Lord should fall into transgression, and become a wicked and an adulterous people, that the Lord will deliver them up, that thereby they become weak like unto their brethren; and he will no more preserve them by his matchless and marvelous power, as he has hitherto preserved our fathers.

As I trust and rely, He will keep me prosperous.

Daily Ponderings: Continual Peace

Mosiah 1:1
And now there was no more contention in all the land of Zarahemla, among all the people who belonged to king Benjamin, so that king Benjamin had continual peace all the remainder of his days.

He can help me find continual peace.

Daily Ponderings: Bid Me Come

Matthew 14:28
And Peter answered him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water.

I can ask Him to ask me, then obey

Joy, Peace, Patience

From Ulisses Soares April 2023 "Follows of the Prince of Peace":
"...we will become more and more cordial and sensitive to the needs of our fellow beings and will experience joy, peace, and spiritual growth. Undoubtedly, the Lord will recognize our efforts and give us the gifts we need to be more tolerant and patient with one another's differences, weaknesses, and imperfections."

I can become more cordial and sensitive to my needs. I can experience joy and peace. I can be more tolerant and patient with my differences, weaknesses, and imperfections.

Uplifting, Supportive, Understanding, Forgiving, Looking for the Best

From Ulisses Soares April 2023 "Follows of the Prince of Peace":
"...consider ways we can transform ourselves into uplifting and supportive people, people who have an understanding and forgiving heart, people who look for the best in others."

I can become uplifting and supportive to myself. I can understand and forgive myself. I can look for the best in myself

End Raging Internal Conflicts

From Ulisses Soares April 2023 "Follows of the Prince of Peace":
"...end personal conflicts that are currently raging in our hearts and in our lives."

I can end internal conflicts raging in my heart. He can help me.

Root of Joy and Strength

From Ulisses Soares April 2023 "Follows of the Prince of Peace":
"...peace gives us the strength to enjoy mortal life and enables us to endure the painful trials of our journey."

Peace is the root of both strength and joy.

TFHW: Still the Leader

4-16-23
Had breakfast with family
Talked to AJ Haines about TFHW

Sunday, April 16, 2023

Daily Ponderings: That Ye May Profit

Mosiah 1:7
And now, my sons, I would that ye should remember to search them diligently, that ye may profit thereby; and I would that ye should keep the commandments of God, that ye may prosper in the land according to the promises which the Lord made unto our fathers.

He wants me to become steadily better off.

As He Loves Me

From D. Todd Christofferson's April 2023 "One in Christ": Daily Ponderings:
...an even more perfect unity would obtain among us if we followed the Savior's higher and holier expression of this second commandment - to love one another not only as we love ourselves but as HE loved us.

Unspoken, but implied, and vital - I should love myself the way HE loves me.

TFHW: The Big Building

4-15-23
Went to the temple for endowments
Shopped at Target
Shopped at Hobby Lobby

Saturday, April 15, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Did Once More Establish Peace

Words of Mormon 1:18
Wherefore, with the help of these, king Benjamin, by laboring with all the might of his body and the faculty of his whole soul, and also the prophets, did once more establish peace in the land.

I can have peace in my life with His help

Be One

From D. Todd Christofferson's April 2023 "One in Christ":
"That they all may be one; as thou, Father, art in me, and I in thee, that they also may be one in us."

I can be unified within myself. The parts of me that struggle aren't to be defeated, but to be accepted, loved, and integrated as part of me.

He Will Heal Me

From K. Brett Nattress' April 2023 "Have I Truly Been Forgiven?":
"His promise is eternal: He will heal us."

He can help heal my sadness if I ask Him to.

First, Acceptance

From Success Yeti:
"Self-Acceptance is the main key to achieve serenity in life."

I expend a lot of energy pushing things away. Maybe I could just let them wash over me and fall at my feet. I don't have to carry them.

Anticipate Less, Center More

From Success Yeti:
"If you want to find peace in life then you have to lower your expectations. When you stop anticipating things in life, you become peaceful."

Close.

CHANGE my expectations.

Stop anticipating NEGATIVE things. That's what fear is, and what stress is. Peace is living in the moment, neither anticipating nor remembering. When I'm centered in peace, then I can safely time travel in either direction. And I can choose to feel kindness as I do.

Kindness, Not Peace, Is the Opposite of Stress

From Dr. David R. Hamilton:
"But peace, calm or tranquillity are not actually the opposite of stress. They represent the absence of stress. We want to feel calm rather than stressed by having the stress removed.

Physiologically speaking, the opposite of stress is actually kindness."

TFHW: Coordinating Better

4-14-23
Made temple appointments
Took Joshua to Dante's
Shopped at Target

Friday, April 14, 2023

Rock Bottom and the Bounce (Litany for a Bad Day)

I'm not cold
I'm not tired
I'm not hungry
So what's wrong?
I don't want to have to look at my job history and feel like the story it tells is that I'm utterly incapable of performing the tasks they need to have done.
I'm a fraud.
I shouldn't even be applying for this job.
It's a waste of my time and hers. I won't get it. I will have gone through the trouble to prepare for nothing. Might as well not prepare.
And just waste the time on games. Then the time will come, I'll fail, and I can go back to spend time with my family who doesn't like me. And I can continue being sad, because I'll never be happy. There's no point to this. Any of this. It's awful, and it'll never get better. Every thing that happens only makes my life worse into a downward spiral of sadness and misery, and nothing will ever make it better. It's all downhill from here until I die alone and in pain with no money and everything I own thrown away because it doesn't matter to anyone. A lifetime of things carefully chosen and preserved, and it's all garbage. Meaningless. My life is meaningless. I have no posterity, no legacy, and it doesn't matter that I ever lived. No one knows me, no one loves me, and no one cares. There is no hope. There is no joy. It will never get better. Nothing I do makes a difference. Nothing I do matters. So why do? Why care? Why try? It's all garbage. Meaningless, worthless garbage. Nobody cares. So why should I?

I feel sad. There's no real reason to. I should be happy. Someone thinks I'm worth interviewing. Maybe they're right. Maybe I can do this. Maybe I am good enough. Talented enough. Have the skills they need for me to perform the work they need done. Maybe this is it. Maybe I'm enough. I want this. Good job, good pay, good location, good hours, good work, good cause. I'll be able to be proud of what I do. I'll be able to answer "what do you do there?" without feeling guilty or ashamed.

Maybe I can do this.

Daily Ponderings: He Did Stand Against Them

Words of Mormon 1:13
And it came to pass also that the armies of the Lamanites came down out of the land of Nephi, to battle against his people. But behold, king Benjamin gathered together his armies, and he did stand against them; and he did fight with the strength of his own arm, with the sword of Laban.

With His help, I can stand against the forces of darkness and despair

Daily Ponderings: Mighty Prayer, Day and Night

Enos 1:4
And my soul hungered; and I kneeled down before my Maker, and I cried unto him in mighty prayer and supplication for mine own soul; and all the day long did I cry unto him; yea, and when the night came I did still raise my voice high that it reached the heavens.

Sometimes I need to pray more than once to get the help I need. Sometimes it's to understand what help I need.

TFHW: Just Need Guns and Money

4-13-23
Emailed Scott about lawyer
Emailed Patty about lawyer
Emailed Roy
Held FHE
Walked around the block

Thursday, April 13, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Spirit in Me

Words of Mormon 1:7
And I do this for a wise purpose; for thus it whispereth me, according to the workings of the Spirit of the Lord which is in me. And now, I do not know all things; but the Lord knoweth all things which are to come; wherefore, he worketh in me to do according to his will.

If I listen, He will tell me what I need to do.

Meditate for Peace

From the Guru Granth Sahib:
"One who meditates on the Naam is at peace."

Giver of Peace, Destroyer of Fear

From the Guru Granth Sahib:
"...offer your prayers to Him, the Giver of Peace. the Destroyer of fear. Showing His Mercy, the Merciful Master shall resolve your affairs."

Families and Joy

From Benjamin De Hoyos' April 2023 "The Work of the Temple and Family History - One and the Same Work:
"It is uniting families and feeling the joy..."

Talking to family brings joy.

TFHW: Sitting

4-12-23
Watched Joshua so Kitten could go to the temple

Wednesday, April 12, 2023

Daily Ponderings: And These Plates Are Full

Omni 1:30
And I, Amaleki, had a brother, who also went with them; and I have not since known concerning them. And I am about to lie down in my grave; and these plates are full. And I make an end of my speaking.

I should record my thoughts all my life.

Mistakes and Poor Decisions

From Peter F. Meurs April 2023 "He Could Heal ME!":
"The Savior's healing and redeeming power applies to accidental mistakes, poor decisions, challenges, and trials of every kind..."

He can help me make progress even though I procrastinate, and help me get a job even with my uninspiring work history.

The Five Covenants

Obedience - Do what makes me feel His peace. It's like choosing to drive on the right.

Sacrifice - ...short term desires to long term rewards.

Gospel - Repent when I fall short on either of these.

Chastity - Be kind to my wife. Always answer her bids for attention by turning toward.

Consecration - Get better at all these.

The 10 Aesthetics of Joy

From Ingrid Fetell Lee's "Joyful"

Energy
Abundance
Freedom
Harmony
Play
Surprise
Transcendence
Magic
Celebration
Renewal

TFHW: Tweet

4-11-23
Went birding

Tuesday, April 11, 2023

Learn from Every Moment, Word, and Action

From Dieter F. Uchtdorf's April 2023 "Jesus Christ Is the Strength of Parents":
"Every moment is a teaching moment. Every word and action can be a guide for making choices."

I can learn from every one of my own moments, words, and actions.

Daily Ponderings: An Account of One

Omni 1:21
And they gave an account of one Coriantumr, and the slain of his people. And Coriantumr was discovered by the people of Zarahemla; and he dwelt with them for the space of nine moons.

Who can I know better today?

Live in the Presence of God

From Dale G. Renlund's April 2023 "Accessing God's Power through Covenants":
"...live in the presence of God..."

Having the Holy Ghost IS living in the presence of God.

Humble, Meek, Submit My Will to God

From Dale G. Renlund's April 2023 "Accessing God's Power through Covenants":
"It is not natural for us to be humble, meek, or willing to submit our wills to God."

Knowing my weaknesses, knowing my strengths, and choosing long term results over short term desires.

Find Peace, Help Others Find It, Pass It Along

From Henry B. Eyring's April 2023 "Finding Personal Peace":
"I pray that you may find peace, help many others to find it, and pass it along."

Be kind to myself and others.

Peace I Leave With You, My Peace I Give Unto You

From Henry B. Eyring's April 2023 "Finding Personal Peace":
"You remember the words of Jesus Christ recorded in the book of John: "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.""

If I obey the commandments, the Holy Ghost will comfort me with peace

Daily Ponderings: Deny, Take up, Follow

Matthew 16:24
Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.

Deny my immediate comfort for long term gain.

Daily Ponderings: Whatsoever Thou Shalt Bind

Matthew 16:19
And I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.

What I decide with firmness becomes real into the future.

TFHW: Righteous Exercise of Power

4-10-23
Gave Joshua a healing blessing

Monday, April 10, 2023

Daily Ponderings: That Which Is Sufficient

Omni 1:11
And behold, the record of this people is engraven upon plates which is had by the kings, according to the generations; and I know of no revelation save that which has been written, neither prophecy; wherefore, that which is sufficient is written. And I make an end.

I don't always have to do more. Sometimes what I have done is sufficient

TFHW: Connecting Family

4-9-23
Wrote to Patty Wrote to Mark Wrote to Roy

Sunday, April 9, 2023

Daily Ponderings: According to the Commandments

Jarom 1:15
And I deliver these plates into the hands of my son Omni, that they may be kept according to the commandments of my fathers.

I just need to listen to the promptings I'm given and be kind.

Zoram Took Courage

From Carl B. Cook's April 2023 "Just Keep Going - with Faith"
"Zoram took courage and went with them."

Even if it's hard, I can choose to walk the pathe that's better for me.

Look for Christ Everywhere

From Bonnie H. Cordon's April 2023 "Never Give Up and Opportunity to Testify of Christ":
"...did see with their eyes and did feel with their hands, and did know... and had witnessed for themselves."

I should look for opportunities to be kind everywhere. Opportunities to be Christ everywhere. So that others can see Christ everywhere. And notice others being kind everywhere.

I should look for kindness, and if I don't see it, then I should create it.

Experience His Power Every Day

From Bonnie H. Cordon's April 2023 "Never Give Up and Opportunity to Testify of Christ":
"Through the Holy Ghost we can experience His power every day! As much as we need!"

We are not separate

Jesus Isn't Magic, He's Affirmation

My observations on Anthony Sweat's "The Everyday Power of CHRIST":

The power of Christ's atonement is that it gets me unstuck. Any time I say "I can't because..." His atonement gives Him the power, authority, and credibility to say "yes, you can"

Cleansing power — Jesus has the power to cleanse us and make us pure.

"I can't because I'm dirty" - "Yes, you can"

Healing power — Jesus has the power to heal us physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.

"I can't because I'm hurt" - "Yes, you can"

Restoring power — Jesus has the power to make right (at-one) all the wrongs of mortality.

"I can't because that bad thing happened to me" - "Yes, you can"

Identifying power — Jesus has the power to understand, empathize with, and guide us.

"I can't because no one understands me" - "Yes, you can"

Strengthening power — Jesus has the power to give us strength beyond our natural ability.

"I can't because I'm weak" - "Yes, you can"

Transforming power — Jesus has the power to change our very dispositions and natures.

"I can't because that's not who I am" - "Yes, you can"

TFHW: For the Family

4-8-23
Went to temple for endowments
. Went birding

Saturday, April 8, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Believe in Him to Come As Though He Already Was

Jarom 1:11
Wherefore, the prophets, and the priests, and the teachers, did labor diligently, exhorting with all long-suffering the people to diligence; teaching the law of Moses, and the intent for which it was given; persuading them to look forward unto the Messiah, and believe in him to come as though he already was. And after this manner did they teach them.

I can reach out confidently in faith to receive His peace.

Witness for Myself

From Bonnie H. Cordon's April 2023 "Never Give Up and Opportunity to Testify of Christ":
"...did see with their eyes and did feel with their hands, and did know... and had witnessed for themselves."

I should speak the truth to myself, even if it makes me look bad to describe how I feel.

TFHW: Communications

4-7-23
Texted TFH Committee
Emailed Patty
Emailed Roy

Friday, April 7, 2023

Daily Ponderings: They Were Exceedingly More Numerous

Jarom 1:6
And they were scattered upon much of the face of the land, and the Lamanites also. And they were exceedingly more numerous than were they of the Nephites; and they loved murder and would drink the blood of beasts.

There are more ways to do wrong than right. If I ask, He can help me determine what the right one is, and choose it.

If I choose poorly, I can think of what I should have done instead. This mental rehearsal will help me do better, going forward.

TFHW: Olson Time

4-6-23
Went to the temple for an endowment
Jeannie Olson complimented Joshua on the serious selection of books he perused at the Upscale Rummage Sale.
Texted Matthew
Texted Mark

Thursday, April 6, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Come Unto Me, Ye Blessed

Enos 1:27
And I soon go to the place of my rest, which is with my Redeemer; for I know that in him I shall rest. And I rejoice in the day when my mortal shall put on immortality, and shall stand before him; then shall I see his face with pleasure, and he will say unto me: Come unto me, ye blessed, there is a place prepared for you in the mansions of my Father. Amen.

He says this to me every day, and not just once. It's His constant invitation to me to partake of His peace.

TFHW: Family Together

4-5-23
Did Michael's taxes
Watched Joshua while Kitten worked at the temple
Shopped at Goodwill together
Tried getting Gary's SS 1099 for taxes
Emailed Patty

Wednesday, April 5, 2023

Daily Ponderings: The Things Which I Had Heard and Seen

Enos 1:19
And now it came to pass that I, Enos, went about among the people of Nephi, prophesying of things to come, and testifying of the things which I had heard and seen.

I need to remember the things I have heard and seen, to strengthen my desire to seek after His peace

TFHW: 5 Years

4-4-23
Celebrated 5 year sealing anniversary

Tuesday, April 4, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Given Unto Them This Holy Land

Enos 1:10
And while I was thus struggling in the spirit, behold, the voice of the Lord came into my mind again, saying: I will visit thy brethren according to their diligence in keeping my commandments. I have given unto them this land, and it is a holy land; and I curse it not save it be for the cause of iniquity; wherefore, I will visit thy brethren according as I have said; and their transgressions will I bring down with sorrow upon their own heads.

I should be appreciative of the good things I have been given.

Daily Ponderings: I'm Not the First to Connect Peace with Power

Psalm 29:11
The Lord will give strength unto his people; the Lord will bless his people with peace.

To Really, Truly Know

From Tracy Y. Browning's February 14, 2023 BYU devotional "Preserving Our Relationship with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ":
"Jesus said, "...And this is life eternal, that they might know..."

Know... not just a little, and not superficially, but with depth, and over the long term. Not just short range.

The Peace of Meekness

From Tracy Y. Browning's February 14, 2023 BYU devotional "Preserving Our Relationship with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ":
"Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering;..."

I don't have to lash out at anyone because my power is under control. I only release it purposefully in pursuit of a specific change.

As I say in solitaire, "I can clear for a King, but why would I?". "I can lash out and hurt, but why would I?" I've never seen an upside to that one, if I'm thinking clearly and an not just hijacked into the moment by anger.

Peace, Power, Covenants

From Tracy Y. Browning's February 14, 2023 BYU devotional "Preserving Our Relationship with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ":
"...apply all that I was learning about preservation to my relationship with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and the covenants that I’ve made with Them. It led me to determine whether I had placed Them in the prevailing position on my personal list of values, allowing everything else in my life to flow from that most important relationship."

What is the relationship between peace, power, and covenants?

I keep my covenants because it works. This brings peace because I'm not at war with myself over what to do. And peace brings me the power to change my life into what I want it to be.

Pefection is Acceptance - Both His and Mine

From Jenet Jacob Erickson November 8, 2022 BYU devotional "Designed for Covenant Relationships":
"...the only kind of perfection is perfection in Christ: “Yea, come unto Christ, and be perfected..."

Perfection is looking with honest clear eyes at every aspect of myself, and being convinced that I am of worth to myself

Perfection is the refusal to refuse to see who I am and then accepting what I see.

I Don't Have to Anymore

From Jenet Jacob Erickson November 8, 2022 BYU devotional "Designed for Covenant Relationships":
"I have learned through painful and joyful experience that when the love of God is the foundation for my identity, I no longer need to pressure, coerce, judge, or extract validation from others in order to feel sufficient myself"

I no longer have to hurt people to feel better about myself

Known to Me by Name

From Andrew Skinners's April 11, 2006 BYU devotional "The Nature and Character of God":
"God the Father knows individuals by name."

I should learn more people's names

He's Asking Me to Do What He Does

From Andrew Skinners's April 11, 2006 BYU devotional "The Nature and Character of God":
"...Jesus commanded His disciples to love their enemies, to bless those who hurled curses at them, and to pray for those who despitefully used them."

God does this

Nothing Is Conditioned

From Dale G. Renlund's September 21, 2021 BYU devotional "Lifelong Conversion":
"Sisu has been described as stoic determination, tenacity of purpose, resilience, and hardiness. Sisu expresses a characteristic that manifests itself in displaying grit, resolve, and courage in the face of extreme adversity or against the odds. Someone with sisu decides on a course of action and then adheres to it—no matter what... Spiritual sisu isn't conditioned on the circumstances of our lives."

Nothing is conditioned. I possess the godly power of agency and am always free to choose.

Hoping and Willing

From Dale G. Renlund's September 21, 2021 BYU devotional "Lifelong Conversion":
"...Jesus Christ, who stands with open arms, hoping and willing to heal, forgive, cleanse, strengthen, purify, and sanctify us."

He can and He will do these good things for me if I ask. But I have to ask.

Always Remember Him

From Dale G. Renlund's September 21, 2021 BYU devotional "Lifelong Conversion":
"We witness that we are willing to take upon us the name of Jesus Christ and always remember Him..."

The way I remember Him is to always keep His peace with me.

Neither Conditional nor Dependent

From Dale G. Renlund's September 21, 2021 BYU devotional "Lifelong Conversion":
"Lifelong conversion means that we endure to the end, remaining firm in our commitment to keep the covenants we have made with God—no matter what. Such a commitment cannot be conditional or dependent upon the circumstances in our lives."

Happiness isn't conditional or dependent, either.

Happily Ever After

From Dale G. Renlund's September 21, 2021 BYU devotional "Lifelong Conversion":
"What can we do to "live happily ever after"?"

I can choose to focus on things that make me happy. It's a choice I am always free to make

Pray Always

To pray always means to keep a prayer in my heart. The way I know I have a prayer in my heart is I don't feel separate. We are not separate. We are never separate. But sometimes I can turn away. I can turn back just as easily, because we are not separate.

TFHW: Taxman!

4-3-23
Held FHE
Paid Taxes
Set out HE LIVES blocks
Emailed Lisa about Gary

Monday, April 3, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Take These Plates

Jacob 7:27
And I, Jacob, saw that I must soon go down to my grave; wherefore, I said unto my son Enos: Take these plates. And I told him the things which my brother Nephi had commanded me, and he promised obedience unto the commands. And I make an end of my writing upon these plates, which writing has been small; and to the reader I bid farewell, hoping that many of my brethren may read my words. Brethren, adieu.

I should take what I learn from the scriptures and pass it to others through my example

Patriarchal Blessing

"Remember that your Father in Heaven will direct your path. He will give you direction. He will counsel you. He will place you where you need to be in order for you to accomplish your goals. Do not fear, but go forward with faith and you will have every blessing necessary for you to receive the great blessing He has in store for you.

These blessings will always be with you so long as you trust Him and rely upon Him.

...Study [the scriptures] constantly throughout your life. Make them part of who you are and Satan will have no power over you, and you will be able to complete your mission and trust that He will have the confidence in you that you must have it in yourself.

Remember that there are things that need to be done in your life. You know what they are. As you put your faith in Him, He will make the way ready for you.

...These blessings are yours as you rely and trust upon Him.

TFHW: Still Cleaning Up

4-2-23
Watched General Conference
Emailed Roy
Scanned some of Gary's pictures
Had long discussion with Kitten about grief and mourning

Sunday, April 2, 2023

Daily Ponderings: I Confess Unto God

Jacob 7:19
And he said: I fear lest I have committed the unpardonable sin, for I have lied unto God; for I denied the Christ, and said that I believed the scriptures; and they truly testify of him. And because I have thus lied unto God I greatly fear lest my case shall be awful; but I confess unto God.

I should tell Him how I really feel.

Anger Didn't Help

I was angry because I didn't have time to do what I wanted. Being angry didn't give me more time.

Good Habit

What is a good habit I can adopt?

Better Version

Paraphrase from Craig C. Christiansen's April 2023 "Joy" talk:
"Focus on the joy that follows repentence as the Savior's atonement frees us. Allow the Savior to transform us into a better version of ourselves."

I can let Him transform me into a better version of me.

Ministering

How would Jesus minister to my families?

Generally Speaking, Never Want What Your Enemy Wants for You

The enemy doesn't want me to find peace. He wants to keep me from even wanting to have His peace.

Look for Christ Everywhere

Look for opportunities to be kind.

TFHW: Apostles and Prophets

4-1-23
Emailed Tom
Watched General Conference
Nursed a sick Kitten

Saturday, April 1, 2023

Daily Ponderings: Farewell

Jacob 6:13
Finally, I bid you farewell, until I shall meet you before the pleasing bar of God, which bar striketh the wicked with awful dread and fear. Amen.

I can fare well if I ask for His help, which I can do as soon as I start to feel even the tiniest bit dark.

Moving On

When I awaken in the night, feeling sad and oppressed, how can I either a) feel peace b) receive revelation c) go back to sleep?
c) Go through baptismal and temple covenants in my head OR "Don't look at that, look at ME"

Combo

How do I minister to the Davies, Langes, and Castillos?

How can I do my calling?

Do both: ask ministering families what they like to do for TFHW

Systems Over Goals

How can I make creating a bathroom, getting a job, and handling Gary's estate systematic instead of goal driven?

"First, you must love the doing"

Keep a Stiff Upper Spine

Erect posture is the key to confidence. "Give me your spine, and I'll give you my peace".

Do I think Jesus ever had a slumped spine?

TFHW: Wife Talk

3-31-23
Had hard talk with Kitten
Went to temple for endowments
Called PGI